Say the words that you mean

I just heard an awesome song by Chris Medina. I thank my friend for introducing me to the singer. Wow...people still mean those wedding vows or the words they say. Well, in my case I am not very optimistic but also think when the time will be right I will be able find the right person. I do feel the pressure as I have seen so many brides in the last year that it hurts me. I am very happy for them and I wish they will have a wonderful journey. But when comes to me it does not work.

Actually love from any man till now has not worked out for me. The first they would say is you’re attractive or beautiful. All the compliments I do take them from my heart but what else. Is there anything else you would want to know about me? Are interested in knowing my passions and ideas? Are you going to be patient enough to stand by my side and the most important do you mean the words that you say?

When I was in my twenties I never wanted to get married. I never thought I will be able to afford a wedding at first. Perhaps because I had no money to get an Indian wedding done for myself. Somehow I got married, fell in love and got betrayed from my love. But even when I was in love my ex was not like me. I think I liked the differences we had. And I took that as another beauty of our love. I tried very hard so that the person who said all those vows will stand for the promises that he made. Unfortunately, I got blamed for not being a proper wife. In all I hate men who say things that they don’t mean.

I wonder that why don’t they understand that somebody might be holding on to the words they said. May be because I think I do say something I actually mean. I have had molesters, lover and the guys I tried dating. But not one whom I could see myself was getting old with. Yes, I am getting frustrated because I think I might have to just settle down with somebody who is again not like me. Because I don’t see anybody with the same interest or goals in life like me. Now I am not bragging about myself but seriously, I have not met anyone like me. And I think a couple is compatible only when they match and not when they aim for different goals or aspirations. This guy who will just say anything that will make me happy enough so that he can have a jiggy. Ahhh...I feel awful sometimes with the feeling of loneliness. But I will make it through I think.

This is just a request to all the men out there that please stop sayings words that you don’t mean. Stop being such idiots and heartbreakers. Because it hurts, it really hurts.