After a long observation i have come to a conclusion that when people have met there daily needs easily by that i mean food, house, job stuff like that they care less about any other person. I have been living in Canada now for 2 years and have figured out that nobody is different in that case. By saying all that i do not want to be self serving and show myself as i am not selfish but seriously i am not that a selfish person. Everyone is looking for what makes them happy and fulfills there happiness. It is kind of sad that people try so hard dating and they never come across the right person.
I have tried tried dating online...and even came across this guy whom I really thought I will get along. But due to family issues and everything i had to let him go. It's not like i fell in love but to have that freedom finally in my life where i can take a step for myself was more that i was looking forward too. So this guy just cancels the date which hurt ed me but i don't blame him.
I could not even explain him whole situation. And then i figured to go against the families wish and just take a chance. I went out with this guy. I had a great time and much more...ha. But seriously why do I meet such people who have issues. This does not want to be committed. By saying that I don't mean he is a bad person. Treats me well but also keeps his distance. Plus i am not a nagger. He says that he is happy being alone and he has no room for any other person in his life. But I do see him being loose from his feelings but one i will say is that i am not using him. But it hurts me to just come back to reality and say that i am not with anyone. I wonder what happened in his life that he has such a cold shoulder. Well, right my situation is a bit confusing coz i get attached or i can just say that i want to be attached to somebody who i can say is mine. See that's what i mean that i just don't want to think about myself. I want to make someone happy and care for.
Last week i went to my cousins party and i see a big difference between me and other girls out there. I don't showoff or do anything to get people's attention. Thank god i am hot enough to get noticed as i just walk by. but still i have a long way to go. I still have to establish myself and be on my own. For all this support i am very thankful to my family.
